a spark of transformation
Welcome!
I’m honored that your path has led you here.
May what you read ignite something within you — a spark of hope, courage, and the knowing that transformation is always possible.
There comes a moment when life as we know it falls apart — not to destroy us, but to awaken us.
In 2008, everything I knew collapsed. What followed was not an easy path, but a sacred initiation — a journey through darkness, surrender, and ultimately, rebirth. Through the ashes, I discovered the power of courage, the wisdom of the heart, and the sovereignty that comes from living guided from within.
My book — and the work I now share — were born from this transformation. They are an offering of hope, healing, and remembrance for anyone standing in the fire of their own becoming.
May my story remind you that even in your darkest hour, light is already finding its way through.
My Story
How I was able to move myself out of such darkness...
Before I could even begin to heal, I had to unravel. Layer by layer, belief by belief, I came to see how deeply I had been conditioned — by my upbringing, by the fellowship of AA, by the words and traditions I once followed so faithfully. I lived by others’ truths, not my own. I had no language for Self, no understanding of what it meant to belong to me.
Change did not come quickly. My heart was heavy with anger, still wrapped in the story of being the victim — especially toward the institutions I believed had betrayed me: the government, the medical system, the faceless machinery of “the world.” I was fighting everything, and everything was fighting back.
Then, in 2017, came another breaking — and within that breaking, a blessing. For the first time, I surrendered knowingly, fully. It was the first of many surrenders, each one softening what I had once armored in resistance.
I’ve come to understand that I am always in process — ever unfolding, ever remembering. The way I meet myself has become my greatest teacher: quiet, patient, honest. Through that meeting, I have found healing and clarity.
Once I unraveled, I began to reweave — with threads of love, joy, peace, and compassion. What was once fragmented has become more whole.
By the end of 2008, the Universe had annihilated every familiar piece of my life. Not a single fiber or thread of connection to my old existence remained. As unaware as I was, a quiet sense of knowing stirred within me. I felt something enormous was unfolding. I could see pieces lining up, even if I didn’t yet understand what was happening. It was so epic, so incomprehensible, that neither I nor anyone around me could make sense of it.
I hadn’t set out to walk a path of self-discovery. I didn’t understand energy, consciousness, or vibration. Yet through heartache, desperation, pain, loss, sadness, illness, and anger, I was guided — by Spirit, God, Source, Higher Self (so many names for the “Great I Am”) — into a process of awakening.
This was my burning down the house moment — when everything was stripped away so that something entirely new could emerge.
Through the years
The Collapse
The Awakening
From the ashes, I began the hard work of facing myself. I spent years unraveling the conditioning, patterns, stories, beliefs, and behaviors that had shaped my identity. For a long time, I lived as a victim of my circumstances — angry at institutions, clinging to others’ beliefs, without a true sense of self.
Through sheer will, courage, determination, and eventually surrender, I shifted from merely glimpsing moments of self-awareness to fully embodying them. The process wasn’t graceful — it was messy, uncomfortable, and often painful — but it was real.
Writing became my lifeline. I filled journals, voice notes, and files with reflections and raw experiences. In 2018, I gathered them together during a writing retreat in Sedona, Arizona and started to write a book of my life and experiences. Reliving it all on the page was overwhelming — each round of edits emotionally and energetically draining — but it forced me to confront myself again and again.
Through that fire, I discovered what I now call the Life Cycle of Warrior Energy: meeting fear head-on and realizing that the true key to freedom lies not in the fight, but in the vibration of the heart.
Through the years
The Rebirth
To say I have changed would be an understatement. I have been reborn — transformed from hopelessness and the depths of the Dark Night of the Soul into a life grounded in self-empowerment, self-worth, and gratitude.
Sovereignty, to me, is not merely the freedom to choose, but the deeper freedom of being self-guided, self-regulated, self-empowered, and self-aware — living from within, not from without.
By mid-2020, my book was nearly complete. When the world was shaken by Covid, I felt called to share my story — as both a continuation of my own healing and a vessel for the wisdom that had emerged. I know what it feels like to have the ground pulled out from beneath you — and the liberation that comes from surrendering to a new way of being.
Covid revealed the collective shadow of humanity — what was hidden rose to be healed. Through that global rite of passage, I too crossed a threshold, leaving behind my former identity and career of over twenty years to walk an entirely new path of purpose and alignment.
Through the years
The Continuation
Today, my journey continues in mystical and extraordinary ways that will unfold in my second book. My prayer is that through my story and by working with me one-on-one, you find inspiration, vision, and perhaps even a glimpse of your own freedom.
And may we continue to walk this path together, beloved soul.
Through the years
Legally changed my entire name
I have
sober since February 7th, 1988
I've Been
Disneyland and the ocen
I love
Yarn dreads for 4 years
I had
some interesting facts...
In my authentic Self
I live
some things i love
These are a few
Popcorn and m&m's together are my absolute favorite treat!
of my favorite things
Thing 1
My morning coffee
Thing 2
Flowers – I love having fresh flowers in my home weekly
Thing 3
Riding my 300CC Vespa on the open road or along the Pacific Coast
Thing 4
Creating…creating…creating
